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Thoughts in Solitude
You pray best when the mirror of your soul is empty of every image except the Image of the
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Shall I drive evil out of my soul by wrestling with my own darkness? This is not what God has
planned for me. It is sufficient to turn away from my darkness to His light...
My life is a listening, His is a speaking. My salvation is to hear and respond. For this, my life must
be silent. Hence my silence is my salvation.
Prayer is then not just a formula of words, or a series of desires springing up in the heart -- it is the
orientation of our whole body, mind and spirit to God in silence, attention, and adoration. All good
meditative prayer is a conversion of our entire self to God.
If we try to contemplate God without having turned the face of our inner self entirely in His
direction, we will end up inevitably by contemplating ourselves, and we will perhaps plunge into
the abyss of warm darkness which is our own sensible nature. That is not a darkness in which one
can safely remain passive.
For inner silence depends on a continual seeking, a continual crying in the night, a repeated
bending over the abyss. If we cling to a silence we think we have found forever, we stop seeking
God and the silence goes dead within us. A silence in which He is no longer sought ceases to
speak to us of Him. A silence from which He does not seem to be absent, dangerously threatens
His continued presence. For He is found when He is sought and when He is no longer sought He
escapes us. He is heard only when we hope to hear Him, and if, thinking our hope to be fulfilled,
we cease to listen, He ceases to speak, His silence ceases to be vivid and becomes dead, even
though we recharge it with the echo of our own emotional noise.
If we can, by God's grace, turn ourselves entirely to Him, and put aside everything else in order to
speak with Him and worship Him, this does not mean that we can always imagine Him or feel His
presence. Neither imagination nor feeling are required for a full conversion of our whole being to
God. Nor is intense concentration on an idea of God especially desirable. Hard as it is to convey
in human language, there is a very real and very recognizable (but almost entirely undefinable)
Presence of God, in which we confront Him in prayer knowing Him by Whom we are known,
aware of Him Who is aware of us, loving Him by Whom we know ourselves to be loved.
The eye which opens to His presence is in the very center of our humility, in the very heart of our
freedom, in the very depths of our spiritual nature. Meditation is the opening of this eye.